My Friends Are NON-Goths

Dedicated to my friends, The Ginabots.

What is a ginabot?

Ginabot is basically the Visayan version of the chicharon bulaklak. This dish is made from pig intestines, which is salted, dried and then deep-fried so that it becomes the crispy flower-shaped finger food.

Do me a favor and read this blog's name again.

Many of my readers have been asking me why it has to be "Isolated Goth Girl" when I'm often seen with too many friends everyday wherever I go. Hmmmm. Since not many of them here know much about the subculture I'm classified in, I guess they know not about what being an isolated Goth means. And when I say they don't know, well, they TOTALLY don't know. NOT even how it feels.

Knowing that I'm the only one who listens to Goth music, watches dark humor or black and white films, reads Gothic novels, and dresses this way, honestly, makes me feel kind of lonely and out of place at times. Choiceless as I am, I decided NOT to remain underground thus I went out to the world to meet everyone up there.

When I was about to get into college, I always believed I'd meet someone of the same interests, be his/her best friend, and live in an alternate world of our own, since this school is big -- it's a university -- and my specialization is Literature (many Goths love reading and writing). So yeah, I was actually expecting and hoping to meet a Goth in college.

But I guess not.

The school still turned out to be the same old breeding ground for mainstream bugs and insects. But luckily I was able to carry on because it ain't too bad as I thought. And instead of hanging out anywhere with one Goth best friend as I had imagined, I ended up with a big bunch of comical angels.

If you'll try observing (if you do notice me a lot, that is), you will see me with this big, loud group of retards that's usually seen with a big grin on their faces. If you try hanging out with them for once, you can never choke down a laugh or two, because it seems as if they have this power to turn anything into the silliest, funniest thing ever.

When I arrive in school, I always look forward to seeing them in order to dispel the lachrymal cloud of pain I carry from home; and as soon as I find them, an instant glow on my face is what I greet them with -- looking as if I wasn't sad when I went to bed the night before. Everything unpleasant seems to get eternally replaced by the day's conversations and cheerful togetherness when I'm with them.

They don't joke about my preferences and interests; in fact, they even report to me when they find a dress that reminds them of me. They also planned out a Gothic birthday surprise for me, and it could have been made possible if not for those measles. There might be conflicts in interests, religion, attitudes, philosphies, and views, but totally, these all don't matter even a bit to them.

I've already gone with them to another island, drank with them on a birthday, went home late for them, and even had a sleepover with them. To some of you, all these might sound so usual and ordinary, but to me, it's something big, bad, and illegal; considering how well-kept and locked of a princess I am at home. It's also kind of unusual since most kids my age tend to avoid me for my strangeness, and it has only been around 5 months since I started hanging out with them.

Ah, I've never felt so loved all my life.

The first time they saw me though -- since I joined their group a bit late -- they normally thought I was weird and freaky. They also talked about me at times. But when they told me now about this, they emphasized their realization that I proved them all wrong: I'm still a normal kid like everybody else, only that I have uncommon interests; and that I'm nice and good and fun, even how easily me and my likes stand out.

I have become quite accustomed to being the only obvious Goth girl hanging out with non-Goths in school. I've realized that it ain't a problem at all, and it also has its advantages. Students who don't know me would ask my friends about why I'm like this or that, and my friends would tell them that there isn't anything wrong about showing who you are. Though at times it might feel awkward singing songs that only I know, keeping quiet when they discuss mainstream music or shows, and buying things that look beautiful to my eyes, they still never question me and they don't want me to feel uncomfortable about doing what I love.

Because of them, I feel less isolated. Because of them I believe I'm special and one of a kind.

I was able to draw them during the sembreak because I missed them so bad. haha. This isn't ALL of us though since the group is getting even bigger.

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Thanks, guys.
Let's stick together though I'm the only Literature major among us, okay?

This Goth's Big Wishlist

Stupidly, I'm gonna post here what I've always wished to have for uhh, kind of a long time already. And yeah, I'm sooo gonna kill for all these, and as much as possible, these are all gonna materialize out of my own pockets and wallets, I promise myself that.

In a few months, I wish I'll have:

♥ a better phone

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♥ contact lenses

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♥ Gothic novels

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♥ pale skin :/

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♥ more Goth apparel and accessories

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♥ a coffin bag

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♥ an Ulzzang wig

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♥ cosmetics 

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♥ The Asylum For Wayward Victorian Girls by Emilie Autumn

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♥ Christmas attire (?!??!) 

i bet some special friends who wanna go out with me for Christmas 
had always wished to see me wear conformist clothes. 
haha, so i'll try. btw, i made this one on polyvore ^w^

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 In the years to come, I aim to have:

♥ a netbook

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♥ a silverburst Gibson Les Paul

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♥ purple violins [acoustic and electric]

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♥ a purple acoustic guitar

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♥ a purple drumset

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♥ a purple piano

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♥ a keyboard

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♥ a better camera

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♥ a big bike

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♥ a skateboard

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♥ a purple bass guitar

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♥ a purple ukulele

♥ a purple cello

♥ a harpsichord

♥ a purple coffin-shaped guitar case

♥ a gorgeous tea set

 
♥ canvas and paint

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♥ my dream house!

 
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Edit: In case you're all wondering what's up with all those purple things and musical instruments, well, just so you know, I've always loved purple since I was elementary. Instead of being the black-clad girl I am now, I used to wear purple from head to toe back then. Hihihi :3 And yes, I'm a self-proclaimed all-around musician. I know how to play a lot of instruments that's why I wanna have my own set of instruments someday.

I'll keep editing this post just in case another wish pops up in my heart. Haha.

How To Sauté A Husband Who Threatens A Wife That Couldn't Cook

This is originally written in Cebuano by Cora Almerino. I'm gonna write the Cebuano version first, and the English translation will follow.

Uhhh, I guess you're wondering why I'm posting this. Taaahaha. Well, I just think it's a nice literary work to share to everyone! It's funny and mad, and feminist. xD The first time I heard this being read aloud in a gathering of poets from my school one night, I instantly thought that I should post it here.

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Unsaon Paggisa Sa Bana Nga Manghulga Sa Asawang Dili Kahibalong Moluto

1) Inita ang mantika sa kaha.

2) Gisaha ang sibuyas bombay ug ahos.

3) Ilunod ang iyang kumo nga iya kunong isumbag sa imong nawong.

4) Isunod ang iyang mga tiil nga iyang ipatid nimo.

5) Isagol'g apil ang ubang bahin sa iyang lawas.

6) Pabukali.

7) Tuslok-tusloka sa tinidor. Mas maayo kon kutsilyo.

8) Timplahi dayo'g pamalikas ug maldisyon.

9) Tilawi.

10) Ha-una.

11) Kan-a. Kon wa'y lami, ilawog sa iro.

-- hahahahaha otoy kay sa?


ENGLISH TRANSLATION:
How To Sauté A Husband Who Threatens A Wife That Couldn't Cook

1) Heat oil in a frying pan.

2) Sauté onions and garlic.

3) Mix in the fists that he says he'll punch you in the face with.

4) Add his feet that he's gonna kick you with.

5) Also mix in all the other parts of his body.

6) Bring to a boil.

7) Try poking it with a fork, or better yet -- with a knife.

8) Season with swear words and curses.

9) Taste it.

10) Serve.

11) Eat it. If it doesn't taste good, feed it to the dogs.

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This made my day! xD Cora Almerino is an awesome Visayan writer. Suwayi ra gud siya ug search. Hahahahahahahaha

Filipino Goth Bands! X'D

You could only see a Goth in the Philippines if you're actually FINDING or sniffing for one, since the capital city here is somehow hogging most of them darkly-inclined individuals. While the Tagalog (those from Manila) Goths are having fun dancing, drinking, and jumping to the music during the Eternal Death Wake or Elysian Dark Fest, the Goths from Davao, Cebu, or Negros -- if there are even any -- are busy accepting the fact that they could be alone in their island.

MEANWHILE IN MAKATI :'D

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MEANWHILE IN CEBU O.O

repeated picture from when I was 15. d'oh.

I've already posted WHY, but despite those reasons, it still isn't that frustrating to actually stop me from looking for another batty soul (feeling hopeful now)! However, it sure is hard to deny that this still remains as a lonely and miserable fact for me, and everyday, fantasizing about Goth friends feed my longing. Sighs.

OH WELL, though this is one big bitter truth (and one big bitter reason for this blog's name) I sometimes can't handle, it still is soothing to know that this country also has its very own little Gothic music scene! ♥

I started to become even more proud about being a Filipino when I learned that not all of my musician countrymen are composing those shallow, cliche, mainstream noise that everyone else nowadays call "music" (ooooooh, I love the way I called it shallow! :D).

So here are the few but great Pinoy Goth bands out there that I'm so happy about!

In case you're wondering... these bands make POST-PUNK, GOTHIC ROCK, DARK AMBIENT, DARK WAVE, or CELTIC music

 DOMINION

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 Sample music?

"Luksa" (Filipino for mourning :3)

Prominence of Cathedrals

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Sample Music?

"Last Four Days" cover :D

The Late Isabel

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Sample music?

their version of "My Favorite Things" ♥

Skies of Ember

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 Sample music

"Headlights"

names are for tombstones

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Sample music

"Sweet Little Death"


Anhura

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Sample music

"Infinity's Demise"

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There are a lot more of these bands in the country, but they're mostly not that active and are hard to find online. So until God permits me to sail away to Luzon and attend the Eternal Death Wake, I'll hear more of these locally beautiful bands and share their music to you guys. But DO try listening to these bands, 'cause they're good, I say. ^w^

Cheerio! xx

Hell-o, December

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I'm sorry if I let the month's first whole week pass by just to come up with another post. I haven't had good adventures lately -- well I kinda did, but I really think that not having a camera to call my own, or not having pictures of my experiences and new stuff lessen my eagerness to show everyone something. :/ Oh but worry not, for I've been constantly reminding myself to brainstorm for another enjoyable post or two; and not a day goes by without me thinking about what to post next..

..E-ehm, so much for this inability-to-write-posts apology.

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Another month has come upon us: a month of anxiety and uncertainty, of fuss and commotion, of preparedness, of doubt. Whilst the doubters and skeptics amongst us would see that the world's doing pretty fine and is normally undergoing the painful consequences brought about by its own inhabitants, the morbidly fabulous ones would say that this world is crumbling, or worse -- ending.

As a matter of fact, the Philippines here was welcomed by a terrifying typhoon warning that shook most of us with fear, and pushed us all to prepare for what could have been the long-imagined natural beast that possibly owns the power to sink us. Fortunately, my beloved Cebu was spared, and uhhh yeah, Mindanao did not sink, silly. But it did sadly receive devastating rains, winds, and thunders.

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Mindanao *A* [source]

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Hearing the latest news, engaging in apocalyptic conversations with friends, watching videos related to exorcism and possession, and researching about aliens got me all nervous and incomprehensibly excited. So in case any of what people say is gonna actually occur on The Day, I'm gonna make the best out of my remaining time. Haha, damn, do I sound stupid and gullible enough?

So I WILL:
 

Go shopping for more Gothy stuff

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Party with friends in the beach and witness a tsunami ourselves

(and perhaps get killed by it).

yeah we planned out about this, and we're kinda childishly serious.

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Post a lot of blog posts.

Do better in school.

Confess my sins.

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So if nothing absolutely happens this month, at least I've done a lot of good stuff for myself! Hahahaha. This is what you call Playing Safe. ;) But here's a couple of verses to ponder on from the Bible:

"However, no one knows the day or hour when these things will happen, not even the angels in heaven or the Son himself. Only the Father knows."

MATTHEW 24:36

" For yourselves know perfectly that the day of the Lord so cometh as a thief in the night."

1 THESSALONIANS 5:2

Makes me ask... Am I just making a fool out of myself by "playing safe"?
Ugh. Oh well.
Stay tuned.