Hell-o, December

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I'm sorry if I let the month's first whole week pass by just to come up with another post. I haven't had good adventures lately -- well I kinda did, but I really think that not having a camera to call my own, or not having pictures of my experiences and new stuff lessen my eagerness to show everyone something. :/ Oh but worry not, for I've been constantly reminding myself to brainstorm for another enjoyable post or two; and not a day goes by without me thinking about what to post next..

..E-ehm, so much for this inability-to-write-posts apology.

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Another month has come upon us: a month of anxiety and uncertainty, of fuss and commotion, of preparedness, of doubt. Whilst the doubters and skeptics amongst us would see that the world's doing pretty fine and is normally undergoing the painful consequences brought about by its own inhabitants, the morbidly fabulous ones would say that this world is crumbling, or worse -- ending.

As a matter of fact, the Philippines here was welcomed by a terrifying typhoon warning that shook most of us with fear, and pushed us all to prepare for what could have been the long-imagined natural beast that possibly owns the power to sink us. Fortunately, my beloved Cebu was spared, and uhhh yeah, Mindanao did not sink, silly. But it did sadly receive devastating rains, winds, and thunders.

UK today =w= [source]

Mindanao *A* [source]

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Hearing the latest news, engaging in apocalyptic conversations with friends, watching videos related to exorcism and possession, and researching about aliens got me all nervous and incomprehensibly excited. So in case any of what people say is gonna actually occur on The Day, I'm gonna make the best out of my remaining time. Haha, damn, do I sound stupid and gullible enough?

So I WILL:
 

Go shopping for more Gothy stuff

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Party with friends in the beach and witness a tsunami ourselves

(and perhaps get killed by it).

yeah we planned out about this, and we're kinda childishly serious.

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Post a lot of blog posts.

Do better in school.

Confess my sins.

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So if nothing absolutely happens this month, at least I've done a lot of good stuff for myself! Hahahaha. This is what you call Playing Safe. ;) But here's a couple of verses to ponder on from the Bible:

"However, no one knows the day or hour when these things will happen, not even the angels in heaven or the Son himself. Only the Father knows."

MATTHEW 24:36

" For yourselves know perfectly that the day of the Lord so cometh as a thief in the night."

1 THESSALONIANS 5:2

Makes me ask... Am I just making a fool out of myself by "playing safe"?
Ugh. Oh well.
Stay tuned.

Interesting Blogs I Just Spotted!

Yes, yes, I've recently followed dozens of blogs this month, all of which were inspiring, creative, Gothy, and just plain awesome.

Since I've already posted the links of some of my faves in my previous posts, I'm gonna introduce you a few ones I haven't mentioned yet. :3

2nd Street Cemetery

all things Halloween, all year round.

 

Allison Paige Eckfeldt

a personal blog by a lovely Goth girl.

 

Seeing Things

Halloween-and-witchcraft-inspired creativity.

 The Everyday Goth

all things Gothy from a Goth girl.

 

Lady Vampiric

a gorgeous modern vampire-like girl.

she speaks another language, but I could always view her pictures xD

The Dark Victorian

gothic lolita fashion, lifestyle, and dark romanticism goodness.

Death Books and Tea

good books given good reviews.

Skellyton Art

morbidly beautiful creations + really good BG music

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Have I sparked thy interests? :3

Go ahead and check them out! ^w^

How This Blog & I Are Doing

Hiya bats and cats.

This month, I think you've all noticed that I haven't posted as much as I did last October... Well, for that, I'm terribly sorry. So as I did last month, I'm gonna give you guys excuses, but this time to explain my inclemency. Actually I got only two reasons why.

ONE -- I'm sad.

HAHA I was 15 :3

 I've been spacing out quite a lot, and I almost don't eat, sleep, or take a bath during weekends. Yeah, I'm starting to get disgusting, but I promise this won't last long.

TWO -- I got classes and plenty of schoolwork to do.

I've been in school all this time, all right. (ooooooo look at my jet black hair xD)

 My mind currently contains all of my future posts and post ideas.

When I get home, I still have the day's pile of research to work on. Nowadays, I usually retire to my coffin by 11PM or 12, 1, or 2AM, and I still need time to handle the regular auditory hallucinations, which means I could only successfully fall asleep almost an hour after I lie down. Uhhh, to make it short, I kind of find it hard to squeeze in writing drafts these days. :/ Last month, I was able to post a lot mainly because of the SEMESTRAL BREAK.

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So yeah. But aside from that though, I won't forget about THANKING EVERYONE FOR VIEWING AND READING MY BLOG! (HURRAY! :D) Kudos for 1, 000++ views! And cheers to my new followers in my "Army of the Undead". ^w^ ♥

Thank you kittens, soooo so much.

By the way FEEL FREE TO COMMENT ANYTIME ON A POST! I've changed the comments settings for everyone -- whether you have an account here or not -- to give their comments if they feel like it.

Keep reading, and DO FOLLOW my blog if you've been visiting it again and again. x'D

For the last time, THANK YOU :3

You actually helped me trample down this annoying depression thingy.

~♥~

Currently listening to an All About Eve song ♥ :'3

Beating The Blues

One thing I'm quite sure of: I've been constantly battling off sadness since I was eight.

I had already attempted to run away then, and that was even before I experienced puberty. I developed inferiority complex months later. I had attempted suicide when I was ten, planned to take drugs when I was twelve, became apathetic and masochistic when I was fourteen.

But when I turned sixteen, I realized I was meant to do great things, so I decided to stop giving in to or LOVING (since I used to be a masochist) depression to turn the tables. I started making my oppressors my inspiration and motivation for success.

Everyone sure goes through a lot of unwanted frequent tragedies, so I thought it would be generous of me to share to you guys how this Goth beats them off.

ONE - Write.

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Poetry is my usual reflexive response when I feel extremely melancholic. I write lyrics, attempt odes and elegies, plan to try dirges, and plan out novels. Hmmm, planning out novels is actually a good idea. It's nice to turn yourself into a peasant, a princess, a son/daughter of a high class family, a scientist, a vampire, or a benevolent witch. Make an imaginary world out of your life and your pen. In some of my poems, I have already turned myself into a doll, a murderer, a ghost, and a lot more random things.

Good quote to remember from His Highness Edgar Allan Poe:

Works with obvious meanings cease to be art.

Indeed.
Okay, maybe it's not that agreeable to some, but for me, it makes a lot of sense and improvement. Poetry as I see it is deep and magical. I think one can express emotions (if this is your purpose) better if you contrast or liken them to the gloomy clouds, dried-up flowers, desolate streets, or violent thunders. It's "poetic" when it's more on that reading-between-the-lines concept, the figurative language, the better-understood-when-read-twice phenomenon -- WAIT, I'm starting to rant too much about this. Haha, I guess I should make a separate post about this then! xD

So to cut this short... If you're not into writing, well, read on.

TWO - Read.

This is related to writing :p

Similarly, reading takes you to fictional worlds. It brings you somewhere; it's a cheat sheet: you learn from a fictional character's experiences and shortcomings. It's learning from experiences that aren't  even your own, thus you won't get hurt in the process xD Reading makes you a better person. Aside from that, reading is a wise choice of escaping; it is a safe vice.

Try reading GOTHIC FICTION! I'm sooooo in love with this genre. Despite the gloomy and morbid atmosphere that surrounds the characters and the story itself, it still brings pleasure, excitement, and joy. I don't know why either, but though I'm already depressed, reading depressing stories strangely makes me LESS depressed. O.o

Also try dark humor, satire, horror, or psychological genres. They are bound to change your way of thinking and viewing of the world. xD

THREE - Paint/draw it.

I used to paint my feelings or draw macabre scenes to release my sadness. Thinking of painting as an escape makes you understand the existence and beauty of abstract art. :3

Umm, right now though, I kinda took a break from painting since I became more focused on music and writing. But I DO miss it, and I would LOVE to indulge myself in it again soon.

But then again, if you can't paint or draw, read on.

FOUR - Make silly Voodoo dolls.

I've made A LOT of "voodoo" dolls (but I don't voodoo, OY!) and I PRETEND to voodoo people who offended me. I guess this is more about anger than sadness then. xD But making cute things like these DO make you busy, so it kind of displaces the bad emotions for a while. I'll post tutorials soon, I PROMISE!

FIVE - Fill your head with good stuff.

The internet is a big home to all your interests! Search pictures, read good articles, watch movies, get inspired, and indulge in a hobby to avoid slacking off and thinking about stinky stuff that ends your life.

SIX - Hang out with your friends.

 ... definitely the best and most effective way. Consider this: I leave home a depressed girl, but I go back home happy. That's how lovely my friends are. When I'm with them, I tend to laugh out a lot and do things I can't do at home. They're the silliest in the world.

And one thing that makes me absolutely love them: they ACCEPT me and APPRECIATE me. So yes, you totally have to go out with your buddies when you're feeling bad. They'll make you puke out that depression and make you go high with irreplaceable happiness.

Advice: The more, the merrier.

SEVEN - Cry it out to someone.

Find someone you trust and let it all out. Yeah, it's no use bottling it up. Why you shouldn't do this by yourself? Well, because you're prone to strange, deadly ideas when there's no one around.

EIGHT - Watch comedies!

 No better therapy! Laugh like there's no tomorrow and see the difference by then. :'D

NINE - Music music music

Be surprised by the magic of artists singing about how you EXACTLY think and feel. Emilie Autumn is good at this. O.o'♥

TEN - Go out, meet the SUN. (X_X)

In his book "The Depression Cure: The 6-Step Program To Beat Depression Without Drugs", author Stephen Ilardi says, "A deeper link exists between light exposure and depression–one involving the body’s internal clock. The brain gauges the amount of light you get each day, and it uses that information to reset your body clock. Without light exposure, the body clock eventually gets out of sync, and when that happens, it throws off important circadian rhythms that regulate energy, sleep, appetite, and hormone levels. The disruption of these important biological rhythms can, in turn, trigger clinical depression."

So yeah. For once in your life, befriend the sun again :'3

ELEVEN - Play.

Yes. Play a game in the PC, in your backyard, or with your pet!

LASTLY - Pray.

No one understands you better than the Writer of your life story.

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Sighs. Just to let you know dears, I'm depressed as of the moment, which is why I wrote this. I guess I'm just good at being the one GIVING advices.

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Pastel goth?

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As time continues to age anything it passes by, bright new things that aren't so acceptable at first suddenly pop up along the way.

I'm not new to all this pastel thingy, in fact I remember I first noticed this way back last year, and I've already followed and liked some Pastel goth blogs and pages. It's just that my sister became too interested and addicted to anything related to it (it all began when I introduced it to her), that I decided to actually write a post about this.

Pastel goth only grew out from Goth fashion, and it isn't even grounded or connected with the music. But nevertheless, they still do have a bit of Goth influences in the way they appear: the prints, the makeup, the boots... just that they're too bright (and they're never even "Goth" at all). Yes, there already has been a colorful offshoot of Goth before them, which is the neon-clad Cybergoths (now slowly being accepted and loved by many in the subculture since it has already existed for more than a decade); and there also had been another new yet controversial fashion style that incorporates grunge, hipster, and Goth which is the Nu Goth; but Pastel goth here combines "kawaii" and "kowaii" (Japanese for cute and scary/creepy) in fashion, which is a new thing altogether. Pastel goth is different from Gothic Lolita in that the former is totally casual, and even more colorful.

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HOWEVER, despite the term "goth" being tagged in "Pastel goth", I think it has become quite noticeable that most of those who wear such fashion don't really consider themselves as Goths at all (and much more evidently, Goths wouldn't also want to call these 'cute', dolled-up humans as Goths mainly or probably because they don't listen to anything considered as Goth music).

But, additionally, as a Goth, I say there seems to be absolutely nothing wrong with new, Goth-influenced fashion trends, and correcting or hating them would be so pointless since it's pretty obvious that they all are entirely different when it comes to genre, music, and preferences... though it frustrates me since new styles like these kind of confuse the little Goths about if you can be Goth without the music since most of the time, the non-Goths are the ones who wear them.

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Pastel goth, as I have researched, started from Tumblr in 2010, '11, or '12.

Their look is characterized by pastel-colored or bleached hair; outfits could be comprised of either mainstream-looking pieces that could be printed with upside-down crosses, bats, and/or undesirable quotes, OR Japanese street fashion-inspired clothing; makeup could still look Goth-like, but at times it could also be pastel-themed or anime-ish...

Able to picture it out yet?

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Personally, I adore the way it looks sometimes, and one reason is that it gives me everyday outfit ideas. I'm not interested in bleached hair, "cute" wigs, or pastel-colored stuff sticking to my body for a day, but I DO undeniably love how the usual pastel goth outfits look all casual and easy, not to mention somehow less head-turning. I WOULD love to wear Pastel goth clothes with the usual dark hair I have.

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