Poem Post: "Tears From Today"

Hello again me lovelies~!

I just thought that it would be a great idea to post another poem (I just wrote moments ago) that contains the loneliness I'm actually feeling for today's date -- October 19.

Being Goth doesn't mean you're not allowed to feel bad, sad, or sorry for yourself. We're still humans, we have feelings, so it is but human to undergo moments of grief and loss sometime while we're living.

I've mentioned of a "crush" more than once in some of my posts. Well, in case if you're wondering, he's not JUST a "crush", because he's more than that. We've dated in the past and had feelings for each other for more than 3 years, but it came to a stop because of certain things... And by the way, he's my crush ever since I was 9, and yeah, UNTIL NOW! HAHAHA crazy, I know :p

And today is.. today is..! Today is uhh, a day when I sound so EMO and ew, I hate it! I sound so disgusting. Hahaha xD Nah, it's just that, today's date actually -- never mind. Read it on the poem. :p

Tears From Today

MINXIE

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A sin I was unaware of,
committed one bittersweet night:
a night of silence and strangeness,
a night so different
a night so fateful.

Little did I know
that as the starless nightsky
and the careless cold night wind
stared and waited breathlessly,
a boy will be leaving me
without my heart's consent.

A slip of the tongue,
a joke supposedly funny
cataclysmically drew the curtains --
that for years had been open
-- to a dramatic, quiet close.

A week of soundless broken lines,
one week of false excuses,
a week of undeterred hopes
but a dispirited Monday
so sudden and questionable,
a Monday I still so loathe arrived.

A picture so sadistic
deprived me of happiness
within eight long weeks;
this will feed me with emptiness
until the instant I shall perish.

O Woe!
So evil, so unforgiving
a year of avoidance and deviance
scraping a heart innocently enduring.

Gentlemen aren't nice
for today marks the day
of intense, undrugged euphoria
for a common damsel
so lucky, so clueless,
a complete stranger
who without knowledge
drained my blessings,
caused a brutal tragedy,
and began episodes of
unstoppable downpours of tears
while the red moon rose
and an uncommon melody
reminded my soul
of a love she had long ended,
though she never intended.


Date written: October 19

Please credit me, by the way, if you wanna copy all or a part of the poem. Thanks :3

Poem Post: "The Ugly Doll's Revenge"

Yo~!

I don't have anything to post as of the moment, so I'm thinking of posting some of my poems every now and then every time I get stuck with this same predicament again.

I wrote this when I was 15.

I got bullied in the classroom that time, and as usual, I didn't fight back. I was on my seat when a bully suddenly started ranting at me. My classmates who were near me looked at the commotion, but didn't do anything to stop her. I just kept myself from looking at her, gripped my pen, and looked at my shoes as she kept talking shit. When she was done, I glanced at her devilish face and caught her dramatically rolling her eyes at me with ire. An Emilie Autumn song was playing in my head that time, so I was thinking of stripes, dolls, tragedies, and graveyards. I thought of pouring my emotions -- of anger, frustration, sadness, embarrassment, and confusion -- in a poem, and add all my Emilie Autumn thoughts to it. So this was the result of the mash up. :D

AN UGLY DOLL'S REVENGE

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As a lifeless, worthless, ugly toy

With a bundle of broken nerves

I truly seem to release no joy;

My owner offers the neglect I deserve.

The other dolls the owner keeps

Are eternally with me on our shelf;

But it is I, who always weeps

For an unexplainable pity on a poor self.

Suffering is such a miserable feeling,

Especially when one doesn’t know why it’s creeping

When one lives with the most undesirable

Overflowing vanity of such “people”.

I merely do not understand why

These dolls I live with on me are sly;

I could not help but grit my brittle teeth

For these villainous dolls with worthless wit!

Like them, indeed I am clever,

Even better than some of the others;

But is it just because I am different,

I know not of anything concurrent?

Such good, prominent mouths used badly,

Used against toys: innocent or ugly;

The owner knows not of their facades,

They are praised, while I, left very sad.

As I reach my despicable destiny,

To be destroyed with neglect,

I shall receive a vengeful soul,

To plague all of them with ugly roles.

O, unending painful loneliness!

Why hath thou bite me without forgiveness?

Because of you, they shall behold

The evil me, all of them cannot hold!

Please credit me, by the way, if you wanna copy all or a part of the poem. Thanks. :3

Outfit Of The Day: "Girly Goth"

Picture quality sucks because I don't have a great, state-of-the-art camera. :(
Hope everyone understands! :3

I went to school today to get a priority number for the enrollment. This is what I wore to school. ^w^

Dress + Victorian cardigan + Leggings + Doll shoes + Headband

I'm lovin' these shoes. I bought them 7 months ago, but I don't use this pair much. It's not so eye-catching, but I say it's pretty perfect for casual Goth outfits. :3 ♥

Music Restriction Among Goths?

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Hi, this seems to be my first post about music, and this category seems to be the most debatable topic amongst us in the subculture.

Uhh, you guys ever observed how some Goths who feel they're "elite" just tell the others off easily, saying that they're poseurs or wannabe's because they listen to the "wrong" music? 

Take the Gothic Metal genre for example. The deathrockers among us would roll their eyes upon this and give off a sarcastic remark or two. The Gothic metal enthusiasts would then try listening to Gothic rock, but couldn't seem to get it though how they try.

On the other hand, those who listen to the post-punk genre would claim that they listen to the "right" music and that this is what everyone should be listening to.

Some deathrockers would also gag at darkwave.

Oh people, what's wrong? DX

Goth Problem #7 from the Gothic Culture page in Facebook

YES, I DO respect the typical Goth rocker's opinion. The bands Bauhaus and Joy Division (etc etc) definitely started it all, thus their musical genre could possibly be the "right" genres we should listen to since because of their music, the subculture was born. I, for one, am an avid listener of gothic rock. In fact, it's the MAIN GENRE LISTEN to. But I admit, I had listened to a lot of Gothic metal before, and still listen to some even until now. Apart from that, I also listen to darkwave, dark cabaret, deathrock, symphonic and progressive metal, industrial, Celtic, and ethereal wave; I even listen to pop punk, classical music, and hardcore, and choose hip-hop when I dance (dude, I love dancing hip-hop! *A*)! But who cares? Didn't we always say that EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT?

I say it's not bad to listen to bands that aren't classified as Goth even if you are Goth, JUST AS LONG AS THEY AREN'T THE MAIN BANDS YOU LISTEN TO. If you like New Found Glory, Panic! At The Disco, or Epica, who's stopping you? Wouldn't it be like pretending or faking it if you force yourself to listen to bands that aren't to your liking? Isn't being Goth about being yourself?

The music genres that the subculture covers now are starting to become very diverse. It would be but CLOSE-MINDED to stop the subculture from growing.

Remember, Gothlings, THERE ARE NO RULES, mainly because this is only a subculture, not some organization or whatnot.

It is truly sad seeing Goths telling Goths off. :<

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P.S. : What would really be wrong is calling extremely non-Goth bands as Goth. I mean, puh-lease, check the genres of that particular band or artist and see if they're even Goth at all. :| It would be quite acceptable if a Gothic metal fan calls Nightwish as Goth because it's "GOTHIC" metal in the first place. 

But Marilyn Manson?

Well, if you like listening to his music, then fine, go on, JUST DON'T CALL HIM GOTH. :3 He's not. Nor is his music. *facepalm* But yes, I admit, his fashion truly is captivating. ^w^

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Currently listening to Coin Operated Boy by The Dresden Dolls. ♥

Additional Cosplayable Characters #1

Yo!

I just added these characters to my list.
(DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of these pictures.)

STOCKING from Panty, Stocking and Garterbelt

SUNAKO KIRISHIKI from Shiki

THE MAD HATTER

THE RED QUEEN/THE QUEEN OF HEARTS

RUBY GLOOM

BLAIR from Soul Eater

 

EMILY THE STRANGE

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Remember to check out the complete list though.
Have a batty day, you guys! :*