Weeks From Blogging: Excuses

Do not count your chickens before they hatch.

^Lesson learned.

I had a job.
HAD.

Look, I wasn't fired or anything, just merely put "on-hold" and will be emailed to come back to the company soon enough. I don't know when soon enough exactly is though. It could be months or years later.

Okay, okay, let's be frank, it's like I was "temporarily fired" (is there even such a thing?), but it isn't because I'm such a lousy employee or that I'm actually an undercover drug smuggler. It's because they hired dozens of college student programmers who need to get focused on for training. Since I'm the only newbie (been working there for only 2 months) who's responsible for calls --from clients and to banks -- they say they won't be needing me for a while and they can't train me because they'll be busy training the new freaks they hired.

So yeah, I didn't expect that.

Way back when I still had my job, I had a lot of exciting plans; I wrote them in lists and I already planned out what I should do to my first salary. But, get this: I was put on-hold long before my first supposed payday, so I was paid that very fateful moment of being "temporarily fired" thus the pay was.. well.. enough to buy one Kanekalon wig. But, no, I didn't buy a wig with it, hell no.

I planned to post my To-Do lists, wish lists, and all my plans here, but.. yeah I guess you now know why I won't. Sighs.

All of my plans, lists, and envisioned sprees dissolved into fine, sparkling, magic dust, and I realized they were just one of the many short-term dreams that wouldn't come true.. YET.

Aside from being "job-deprived", there was this small Goth meetup I organized and it was supposed to happen last week. Goth friends I have from different parts of the Philippines and one from outside the country told me they were comin' over to Cebu. You could just picture out the wide grin of giddiness I had when they said that. So I planned weeks before as the host. We'll have tea, discuss subcultural matters over, and plan out stuff. But I guess it wasn't meant to happen. All of them had valid reasons so it would be totally unreasonable for me to whine and cry like a baby for this.

So I was back to my old penniless self, but this is even a worse form since school's over and I won't be given any allowance, better yet, a single penny. Jobless as I am, there won't be any reason for me to go out the house. Besides, I don't have any money to use as fare.

Staying at home was like being confined in a mental institution. I stayed in bed all day, stared at the ceiling, thought about what I should do next to make things better.. but came up with nothing every time. All those silent weeks this blog went through was spent reading about the science of ghosts and having daily text-a-thons with Mr. Boyfriend -- the only guy who currently gives a shit about what's going on with my crappy life since nobody at home gives even a little fuck about me xD

But then I realized I've gone dormant as a blogger, and if I quit this blog, my life will get even more shittier that it is now.

So yeah. Hi, I'm back.

Again.