Writer's block: a recurring disease

I've been a very bad blogger.

I would suddenly stop writing for about 3 weeks or 3 months and turn this blog into some personal journal after the absence. Many of my friends have been asking me if I've posted anything new recently, and some readers have been looking forward to promised posts. God, I sincerely apologize.

Writing seems to be quite a different art -- to me it requires massive amounts of inspiration and motivation to keep you going; I need to be in the right frame of mind, the right mood, and the freedom from any distractions and pressure whatsoever, the burning enthusiasm, the vivid and breathing creativity. Unfortunately during the past months, I haven't read anything that boosts my creativity levels, and my time's all spent on a boyfriend who demands my constant communication. Sighs.

Novels and poems are oftentimes the most helpful factors that inspire me to write. My imagination tends to get brighter when I read a darker variety of literature -- the contrast itself is entertaining and motivating that it fills my head, pulsates increasingly every passing minute, and might burst out any moment if not released from a pen. Miserably, I have not seen any book worth buying and drawing inspiration from, nor have I spare bills to spend these months because of my annoyingly growing appetite, and a relationship that needs to be frequently fed.

Nevertheless here I am once again, risen from my mind's debris brought about by the unexpected magnitude 7 earthquake and the strongest typhoon in history (living in the Visayas region suddenly became exciting). Although my Halloween hangover is still a bit disturbing, the praises, mails, and comments this blog has earned have been quite alarming, just enough to substitute the amount of inspiration I'd get from a dark novel. ♥

Oh God. Earthquakes and typhoons. Please, It's Not Fun in the Philippines anymore. Stop coming.

I might post late posts about Halloween and past events (I'll edit the dates) along with the same old posts I used to write in this blog. :3

Le me starring in a black metal music video! O_O

All pictures are from Musika Sugbu

October 13, 2013
What I did on No Bra day? Woke up at 6, got ready, and headed to Lahug to meet up with a local black metal band and star in their MV. And no, I did not take off my bra.

I don't listen to black metal because I find it scary and Satanic. I also find corpse paint (a style of black-and-white makeup, used mainly by black metal bands during live concerts and photo shoots) just.. plain horrifying. But when I met the guys from EREHES, my assumptions were completely changed. Corpse paint isn't so scary after all, and these metalheads aren't the evil maniacs I thought they were. Black metalheads aren't necessarily Satanists.

The guys behind me are totally hilarious. And yes, I'm so tan here </3

I mean, guys in corpse paint, clad in black, with all the big metal spikes and gears.. riding on small bikes and braiding grasses? They're one of the coolest people I've ever hung out with on the first meeting! They were extra nice, respectful, and super hilarious! I was scared shitless on my way to our meeting place because I thought I was gonna get sacrificed or something. Hahahahahahahahaha but I wasn't. Instead, I was treated like a princess the whole day. I'll never forget these guys :3

le band members doin their makeup all by themselves :D
IDK but I totally find it cute and funny xD

le me and le director :3

Shootinggggg! Baaaaam!

Diz picture! I got included in CNU's Head Turner for this! Gaaaaaah heeeeeeelp :/ I'm sooo tan T.T

Kuya Ramee edited thissss ♥

FUN! FUN! FUN!

GRANNY: THE LEGENDARY PHOTO BOMBER! XDDD

These guys are the coolest! \m/

One thing I've learned, no, not learned but re-learned, is that we should never, at all costs, judge anyone. Daaaayum I should never have had assumptions beforehand. Oh well :/

The MV will be released maybe next month, so keep posted! xx ♥

Friday the 13th Graveyard Picnic!

The most awaited Pre-Birthday Celebration post sure came in late! Might be presented as something that's best so saved for last, but miserably, my best friend Ian Roy actually sucks at punctuality (I guess I've always mentioned that), he's got the pictures, and it takes him a million reminders to finally get him moving.

September 13, 2013

le graves :'D

So here it is! My graveyard picnic during a day that literally proved to be unlucky as its name implies. Let me segregate the good ones from the bad ones. I'm gonna mention the latter first so this post gets sprinkled with sugar despite its mournful bitterness.

One, Ian Roy failed to bring my spotted tea set, the utensils, and some water. Despite all his reasons and excuses I considered "valid", one fact is clear: he didn't prepare well for the picnic. His unpreparedness became the root of all the trouble. My mind was at a state of unrest the whole time when we were on our way to the memorial park; I felt the itchy need to really buy a new tea set. Hence, we didn't disembark at Celestial Gardens but walked our long, dreary, scorching way to a mall to buy three tea cups and saucers (a whole tea set costs too much) instead. Myself being satisfied, we rode back to the street leading to Celestial Gardens and unconsciously hurried up the long, winding road to the cemetery, only to find out we forgot to buy some water for the tea. O.o Worse, no utensils. And we already made it up the hills and mountains when we realized it.

Two, Celestial Gardens is a private cemetery but it's free for public use. That means, only the family of the owner of the land the cemetery's built on can be buried there. By public use, it means anyone can visit the memorial park, have picnics, or hold religious activities. BUT, pictorials and photo shoots are absolutely not permitted. Yeah, you got that right, not much pictures during that day </3 We were actually reprimanded by this annoying stranger that got suspicious upon seeing our Goth attires. He thought we were all dressed up for a photo shoot.

So yeah, that was it. Nevertheless, our resourcefulness made us survive somehow.

Preparin :3

Lezz do dat duck face :D
*phone camera quality </3*

Anyhoo, at least we finally experienced having tea and eating some sweets at a cemetery. The cake was all good, we found ourselves even more than stuffed. The tea was sweet, the bavarian donuts were delectable, and the way down the hills was very dark and magical. Not a single light post was standing along the long road down. The moon was new, the sky was dark. The trees were but silhouettes against the phosphorescent night sky, the breeze ghoulishly cool. The city lights below were like stars glistening amidst an immense black blanket of buildings. We were alone as we trod the long stretch of road, and the trees were like black entities towering over us, watching us as we walk. The sounds of sand and rocks crushing beneath our feet and faraway disco music were the only disturbance of the silence that sang for the evening.

E-ehm. So yeah. That was it. Looking forward to more graveyard picnics soooon ♥

WIN FREE TICKETS TO ETERNAL DEATH WAKE 11 HERE!

Hello, bats! In the Philippines, particularly. Subkulture is giving me the honor of holding a giveaway of five tickets to Eternal Death Wake 11! For those who are still wondering what Eternal Death Wake is, I posted about it here. See facebook event page and poster below for more details of the upcoming event:

Wanna join in the fun? Get a chance to win free tickets here! Here's how to:

1. Follow me on Facebook or Blogspot.
   
   
2. Like the Subkulture and Eternal Death Wake FB pages.
   
   
3. "Join" Eternal Death Wake 11 in the EDW FB event page.
   
   
4. Leave a comment under this post with your email address.

Deadline of entries will be on October 26, 2013.

So how are the three lucky winners chosen? Simple! I'm gonna use a random number generator.

So, what art thou waiting for? Make haste! Send thy entries now! ♥

FANGS OUT! Eternal Death Wake on Oct 26!

Calling all Filipino Goths!
Subkulture's annual Goth event is fast approaching! Eternal Death Wake 11 will be held in Makati City, Philippines on October 26 (and in San Francisco on November 2)! Come join in the dreadful fun!

Want FREE tickets? View this blog post and get a chance of winning FREE tickets! Subkulture gave me the honor of having ticket giveaways for the EDW in Manila! ♥

Join join join!

This blog is featured in Subkulture.net! ♥

Subkulture

Subkulture is the Home of Subkulture Magazine, The Eternal Death Wake (EDW) Festival, Subkulture Records, and Subkulture Radio.

Subkulture is a Fraternal Organization which supports Goth-related Music & Culture from around the Globe.

Tracing its roots to Manila, the Philippines, Subkulture began in the early 90's as an exclusive Goth club of close knitted friends who shared an affinity for bands like the Cure and Bauhaus, spearheaded by Gerard Runeschadow Delarosa an avid record collecter and Goth DJ from the 80s.  

It later developed into a roving club in the metropolis, Klub Gargoyle was born out of this and it's reputation grew, known to be the first roving goth club in Manila, Subkulture denizens began appearing in numbers significant enough to be noticed by the media, hereon the dispossesed have finally found their home.

Subkulture is dedicated in supporting the Global Dark Underground through all it's activities.

IT'S GOOD TO BE HEEEEEEEERE! TAAAHHHH~ *A*

I was asked to post their magazine on my blog months ago, but I haven't got the chance to do so, I've been so busy and I'm kinda lackin' that enthusiasm in posting. Now, gladly, I've regained it! See their magazine here soooooon ♥

Waking your best friend up with a lil birthday surprise

October 12, 2013

Ian Roy may not be the perfect best friend one can have -- he's NEVER punctual, he's totally annoying, he never stops teasing you even when he knows you're already mad, he's a bit insensitive -- but he sure is a major life-changer.

If you've read my past posts, you might notice an implication of a sorrowful past, and and abrupt transition towards a healthy, wholesome present. I'm proud to say Ian Roy's responsible for the bright change.

My SMS bday message:
To my personal troublemaker. Former slave. Hired spy. Unpaid psychiatrist. Psycho psychic. Partner in crime. Fellow idiot. Music student. Chained lunatic. Inspirational chest. Dark fantasy co-enthusiast. Arranger-composer. One and only Mr. Bean. Evil plan plotter. Unashamed sidekick. Elementary playmate. Mad Hatter. Circus magician. My future film director. Unverified brother. To my best-est friend. The only vague character that never left my life story. The usual twist in my life's plot: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

My birthday present for him was rather late -- I gave him a bad day on his birthday and October 7th was the first day of our final exams so I had to make up for that during the weekend.

I'm pretty close with his family, I could visit their place anytime (sometimes I gotta consider his grandparents though) so I knocked on their door at around half past eight in the morning. Everyone was still asleep, and I didn't expect Ian Roy sleeping in the living room when he answered the door around two minutes later. Apparently he was awakened by my noisy knocks and was still too drowsy to believe I was actually visiting him at that hour, greeting him Happy Birthday while holding a cake that he paused then slammed the door in my face and mumbled Am I still dreaming? Moments later, he opened the door and still saw me there and said, "God, you're still there, this mustn't be a dream."

Jeth was supposed to be with us that morning but unfortunately it was a bit impossible for us to really meet up when she doesn't have a phone anymore. So I surprised Ian by myself though how awkward it would be, I mean, who's gonna take pictures of us, or me surprising him with poppers, confetti, noisemakers, and fountain candles?

Oh well, that wasn't much of a problem.

Look at that sleepy face hahahaha

Shadows leave you in the dark. But real friendship never does.

Now this doesn't look like me O.o

Le fountain candles! ♥

I love the sparkles! O_O

Stabbing the cake to death.

Tea is mandatory! ;)

Jeth finally caught up by lunch time so we had another meal, and discussed our plans: putting up a horror booth next year, studying different religions to come up with answers, agreeing about going on ghost hunting, and many more.

A Filipino meal. Without rice. With tea. Hahahaha what is it exactly?

Tea, Sir, SHALL NEVER BE ABSENT!

Jeth had to go earlier though, she had to submit a paper in school. So I stayed in 'til evening, doing nothing but talking about anything under the moon.

Having a best friend whom you've always been with for quite a long time feels great, especially when your minds have this eerie connection that never gets cut off despite the time and distance that separate you. It's always cool to be with someone whom you can act stupid, talk about anything, and look super ugly with, but still have the most epic moments though you're not at your best! :D

WAAAAAY BACK THEN